Love It or Hate It

I can't believe....: -That I'm not going to be a teenage anymore in less then 8 months!
-That me & Dakota been together for 3 1/2 years next month!
-That I graduate college this December!

: crisx08; February 9th, 13:38

Current Location:: Perry Tech

Current Mood:: indifferent

I bought my domain name!! so www.CrystalYanez.com is up!!! Just not running lol I got nothing on there. But just thought I would share the making of my website. Of all the things I done to it. The different backgrounds, colors, took things out put things in. Still not sure if the last forth one is the FINAL final. But I like it. It doesn't look too bad. The problem that I've been having with is matching colors and making sure the background is like way way to bright or distracting. That's why I decided to make it dark in the last one. The first two was just changing a little with the header and buttons. Then we showed them to the class and they told me to do a few other things. Then the forth one was from yesterday when we showed them back to the class. I don't know. My websites seems very kidish compared to the other students in my class :(

Click Picture Thumbnail to Open then Click Picture again to Open full screen.

Tags: art, me, school

breakdown

: crisx08; February 7th, 19:43

Current Location:: My Room

Current Mood:: grumpy

AHHHHH!!! Just felt like screaming all day! My dad of course is drunk and arguing with Angel. Like really? How childish. Just yelling at her saying such horrible things. Like he wishes she was dead like her mom! That she doesn't belong in this house. And just everything from her talking too much to her just being alive. I just couldn't take it anymore. About an hour ago he started yelling at her for some reason or anything. And I just snapped. I went in there got up in his face and basically screamed at him from the top of my lungs. Telling him to stop it. Telling him to stop acting childish and maybe her crying is the only way she can get her emotions out. And that I just couldn't take it anymore. All this has to stop. Well, it did basically stopped. Didn't here here another word from them. Then everyone finally went to sleep. Ugh! I was so mad that I was shaking. I had to cool down and the only way I do that is by cleaning. So I went and cleaned the dishes and picked up the kitchen.

Also I was yelling at Dakota via text because he sent Scrub manager a video of me wrestling Angel because she was being a brat. She kept asking my mom to go to a friends so I held her down and wrapped my arms and legs around her for about a good 35 mins. Until I wore her out and she stopped asking. But I can't believe Dakota sent it to her. For one because she doesn't even like me so I don't see the point and for two he didn't even ASK or TELL me he did it. And I don't like her. I don't want him sending her crap of anything about me!! He's so freaking stupid. And so selfish! Doesn't even think about me when he does that shit!!!

And last question thats on my mind... Why does good things happen to bad people??? My new favorite quote is "When you pray to God for strength he sends you difficulties to make you stronger." And I'm really starting to believe it so I'm trying to be hopeful and think positive. That's the only way to really live life.

Tags: depression, family, nieces&nephews, sad

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I'm still waiting...

: crisx08; February 3rd, 13:58

Current Location:: Perry Tech

Current Mood:: hopeful

Today is a happy and sad day. Happy because it's my only nieces 11th birthday! Sad because today is the anniversary of the last days of my sisters life. They thought she was murdered this day but we didn't find out until the 5th that she was gone from this world. I just wanted to say a prayer for her and in hope that we get answers to finally close her case so she can have justice! It's so painful to live in doubt and the unknown. I miss and love you very much Sissy!

A Prayer For The Dead

God our Father,
Your power brings us to birth,
Your providence guides our lives,
and by Your command we return to dust.

Lord, those who die still live in Your presence,
their lives change but do not end.
I pray in hope for my family,
relatives and friends,
and for all the dead known to You alone.

In company with Christ,
Who died and now lives,
may they rejoice in Your kingdom,
where all our tears are wiped away.
Unite us together again in one family,
to sing Your praise forever and ever.

Amen.

Tags: birthday, dead, death, family

Sees the Best in You.

: crisx08; February 2nd, 8:06

Current Location:: Perry Tech

Current Mood:: excited

So I joined the Ladies Fitness Express yesterday! Today is going to be my first day of working out! It was really cheap. It's $35 a month! I think I can handle that. It's not like the Y I tell you that but it's cute, cozy, private. So I have to make due of it. The bad part is it kind of reminds me of IKE's gym when you have to rotate machines every 60 secs. Kind of weird. I want to be able just to go and do any machine I want but it doesn't really work like that. Oh well, I haven't been working at there yet so I guess I shouldn't judge if I like it or not. Wish Elvira would join with me! :-P It will be fun!

Tags: gym, me

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Your Only Young Once (5 Year Plan)

: crisx08; February 1st, 10:26

Current Location:: Perry Tech

Current Mood:: accomplished

I just wanted to update my 5 year plan that I've been doing. Well I haven't been doing much of it :( but ya know I'm slowly getting things done lol So I wanted to mark that I actually did ice skating. We stayed for like an hour. And I hated it. Glad to get that off my life list though lol. At least I can say I did it. Probably never going to do it again though!! Dakota was showing me and Elvira up. Skating around like a crazy person while me and Elvira held on to the rail the whole time. Hey at least we didn't fall. Almost did. But didn't :) and that's all that really matters lol

**MAKE SURE TO CLICK THE LINK AT THE BOTTOM TO VIEW MORE PICTURES!!**

In 5 year’s I will be 24 years old
By that time I would like to:
01. [ ] Finish College
02. [ ] Go to Europe (of course with Elvira)
03.

[ ] Get Married (<3+<3)
04. [ ] Get my own place (apartment is ok but I would like a house)
05. [ ] Go Skydiving
06. [ ] Visit the actual beach!
07. [ ] Lose 20lbs (I want to be 120lbs again)
08. [ ] Get my 3rd set of piercing done on my ears
09. [ ] Get my nose pierced
10. [ ] Make a quilt out of old clothes
11. [ ] Actually go to a concert out of town!
12. [ ] Have dinner at the top of the Space Needle in Seattle
13. [ ] Go on a big roller coaster like at 6 Flags
~~14. [X] Get Drunk for the 1st time ever~~ (August 2nd 09 @ Amy's house: Surprise Birthday Party for me!)
15. [ ] Have my 3rd picture make it on Jones Soda
16. [ ] Actually get my 1st manicure with the fake nails
17. [ ] Buy another car
18. [ ] Take a road trip to the coast with Dakota & Elvira
19. [ ] Actually try skiing/snowboarding ONE TIME
~~20. [X] Go Ice Skating~~ (January 28th 10 with Elvira & Dakota)
21. [ ] Go to a spa with 1 other person & pamper myself all day!

I'm going to make a photo album on LJ with all these pictures Elvira.

View all my Ice skating pictures by clicking HERE

Tags: 5 year plan, dreams, goals

Why should I care?

: crisx08; January 29th, 10:41

Current Location:: Perry Tech

Current Mood:: scared

I am physically, emotionally, and mentally drained. I just can't take it anymore. I try. I try. I try. And the weight is so hard to bare anymore. And being off my pills for the first day doesn't help either. And then my bad luck just strikes again. I can't focus on anything. I can't concentrate in class. I even left class for a while just to get a breather and to think straight but it didn't work. I even started to cry in class before I left. All need to just have some amazing fun time tonight with Dakota, maybe Justine, and Elvira. I'm just not going to care about anything during that time and just concentrate on me and the people I'm with! I love them so much!

I'm sorry Joshua. I just can't help you. I was in shock when you told me you tried to kill yourself by taking 40 some odd pills of painkillers. I'm sorry I couldn't help you. I'm sorry I wasn't there. I'm sorry if I was part of the reason. I want to help. I want you to feel like you belong in this world. But I can only take so much. I have never been broken before by this stuff. By you, my best friend, you did it. You broke me. I can't gather up any energy to even talk to you about it. So if you're waiting for a text back from me. Sorry. I just don't know what to say. I don't know what to do. Should I tell your sister? Should I talk to her? Would she care even? I can't be the only person to care for you. I just don't know anymore.

Tags: best friend, drama, friendship, stress

how fucking sweet

: crisx08; January 26th, 7:52

Current Location:: Perry Tech

Current Mood:: annoyed

Well ... my car broke down yesterday. Yup, gotta love that bad luck of mine! But Amy's husband Brian came to my school to take a look at it. He couldnt figure it out but yet got it working again. I only missed lunch :( but ya know, missing one meal isn't going to kill me... I think. Anyways, at school. Probably not going to do anything. Like yesterday.

Tags: me, stress

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It always rains the hardest,...

: crisx08; January 23rd, 17:09

Current Location:: My Room

Current Mood:: unlucky

My bad luck strikes again! I swear its like a rain cloud that hovers over me with bad luck lightning striking me or people close to me. This morning I had to drive my mom to the ER. She couldn't walk at all. We knew it was a bug bite on her ankle and it got all red on Friday morning and it was sore. Well this morning she couldn't take the pain anymore. So we went to the ER and turned out they think it was a Black Widow spider bite. So she had to be on a IV all day and she has to go back tomorrow for a check up. They gave her 3 bottles of different kind of antibiotics and pain killers and crutches. Ugh! What a weekend!

Tags: family, stress

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not enough

: crisx08; January 21st, 8:42

Current Location:: Perry Tech

Current Mood:: annoyed

Today isn't starting out so good... I mean first I get yelled at by mom because last night Josh didn't have anywhere to stay so Dakota went and got him and so mom started yelling at me for it. Now at school the teachers gave the whole graphics class seating arrangements. And the assignment is to write 3 descriptions about yourself pass it to the left and the persons you get you have to write their name but making a new font for them from their description. So the guy I got was Matt. It's kind of weird. I feel like I'm back in middle school writing your new crushes name over and over on notebook paper in so many different ways. lol. It's soo funny.

Tags: best friend, school

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any better than this

: crisx08; January 20th, 13:21

Current Location:: Perry Tech

Current Mood:: ecstatic

Got Good News and Bad News. Bad News: So Josh ended up back in the hospital! I can't keep up with that kid I swear. Well he went to the hospital because he couldn't breath. They put him on oxygen tanks and everything. He has a swollen whatever in this throat and they did an xray and he has a bone out of place in his chest. Man, that kid. I don't know what to do with him sometimes. I want to help. But I can't be the only one because I can only do so much. Ugh. Stress.

Good News: A drawing of mine got chosen for the Yakima Valley 2010 School Calender!!! How freaking cool is that! I'm July word is "Kindness" They gave me a calender for free too :) Going to hang it up! I can't wait to show my family!!

Tags: art, bff, me, stress

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No one can make you feel inferior

: crisx08; January 19th, 8:05

Current Location:: Perry Tech

Current Mood:: sad

Wow... so more bad luck... Josh and I got into a little arguement (yet again) so he left me house at like 5:30am to go over to Kyles (stupid stupid idea) because he wanted to confront Kyle about why he was mad at him and blah blah blah. Well Instead of getting an answer he got a concussion. Tj came at Josh with a knife so Josh backed up by the stairs leading downstairs and then Kyle pushed him down the stairs! Then Kyle called the cops on Josh trying to get him in trouble but after hearing the whole story the cops only took Kyle. Josh was taken awake in an ambulance. He got a concussion and a cracked rib. Ugh! And now me and Dakota are fighting over stupid part of it because of Josh. Also Dakota lost my Perry ID tag :(

Tags: bff, friendship, relationships

Things to do today:

: crisx08; January 15th, 10:02

Current Location:: Perry Tech

Current Mood:: uncomfortable

Hmmm... tonight I'm cutting my bi-polar pills from 50mg to 25mg :( I only have a week left and I just can't stop cold turkey and I can't afford it so I can't get anymore. So here I go :(

Tags: life, me

town full of crazies

: crisx08; January 12th, 8:06

Current Location:: Perry Tech

Current Mood:: enthralled

So A and B talked last night and figured that there's not much they can do to stop the harassment of Bitch! The police said they can't technically do anything. Can't file a harassment order or just anything. So her plan is to make Bitch jealous of what she has until she starts something. So, A and B are "trying to have a baby". :) That's something that will eat at Bitch because she is in love with B and of course like I said before... want's A's life and that's why she trys to act like her sooo much! What a crazy!

Tags: drama, friendship, life

AND NOT A DAY LESS.

: crisx08; January 11th, 14:47

Current Location:: Perry Tech

Current Mood:: excited

Ok so this entry is especially for Elvira!! (

elements_fade ) Just wanted to show you the bad ass phone I want!!!! Isn't it just so awesome!! lol

Learn more about this phone by going here to the PC World Article.

I want it. I want it. I want it. :)

Tags: me

my SCARS remind my that the PAST is REAL.

: crisx08; January 11th, 14:22

Current Location:: Perry Tech

Current Mood:: melancholy

Why do people have addictions? I saw I didn't write about this so I thought I would bring this up... what's up with people an addictions?????? I mean, not to bash on my dad or anything, but his drinking is just becoming too much for me to sit back and watch! I'm scared I'm going to lose him!

Like when he was at my house... the night that my car wouldn't start.... And my car was parked behind his truck so what he did was just drove forward into our yard almost hitting my moms car, made a U turn in our neighbors yard almost hitting my car, almost hitting their tree, and then running over their little bushes to get back on to the little road to get out of our manor...

I mean really? Was he that in need to get more alcohol!?
I bet our neighbors our pissed when they saw all the tired tracks from the truck going back and forth because my dad kept getting stuck in the snow.

I don't know what's worse sometimes though. The other time my dad was at my house my dad fell so hard I swear it shook our house. And hit his head on the little fold out table. He wasn't breathing at first and did little twitching things. My mom screamed at the top of her lungs "Crystal, Hurry! I think your dad's dead!!!" I mean that's something you don't want to hear as soon as you wake up! As soon as I ran into her room he started snoring. We left him there for hours.

It hurts so bad to see him that way. When I was a child he did that too. And one day, when I was like six, I asked him "Do you love a 6pak more then me?" Well guess what his answer was. Yes. That's not something you say to your little girl. I'm never doing this to my children if and when I have them. So God help me!!!

Tags: drama, family, life

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